to be lonely

i guess it my another time write the blog...i want change my life to be something

lonely doesn't mean its heavy...
just matter of time

lonely is only one time where The Man Up there want u to think something
if u cant find the answer...might be He don't want u to step up....

time just pass like that
decision to do something is same fast as blink ur eye...

to be better
lonely is the correct time to think....evaluate....ur self...ur mistake....ur good at....

just realize...there so much time that I wasted.....time 4 me to change it before i die....

i die...my heart die.....all die....

thats why..lonely is the answer....


love u Dad...u brigthen my world
momy...thankyou... d way u love me is everything to me

love my family...

love human....

love lonely...

is it nerds...

My headeche conquer my eye

I cant see any of God toy anymore.....

i feel i starting become one of the nerds...this few days I saw a lot of things that might be related to Nerds....

I dont want..but my mind starting to be busy....
I rater be silent....

i dont want my busy mind conquer my body and even my self..........

lately...i act wired when i'm alone....

my stuff also become wierd...

i want to be diffrent but i dont want be that way....

i want to tell you how its going..
.

the creature inside my eye...swim hapilly.....

swim to the ocean of eye..

there are so happy to swim...

but its disturbing my mind.....

and

i saw puppies cloud into my eyes....

How wierd.......

i cant tell you how exactly its......

its wierd...when it come...............

the God toy

I fly...

up....

into the sky....

and I saw....God creature....God toy......
i think u might dont know what it is...but its only my imagination when i go deep to the cloud...

i saw His toy....

people always says...when u see cloud...u can see tample of God....

I cant see it...but I saw his toy.....

I meet many wierd...out of mind creature....i never meet this thing....but i miss them....

"nice to meet you..."

waiting....

i was waiting for my flight...

where it always delay.....

then i saw another guy....quite old....with his small laptop...
he smile when he say it...it reminde me to an future old life..where the old people only hopes is their children...and only with their child they can talk and full fill their life...

huff....what an life.....its always have something...........you cant tell with words.....